I'm not a morning person, or if I haven't slept yet it's still night time
Look at that stupid time stamp.
I tried to go to bed at 2 am. No luck.
For those of you who have never suffered insomnia, (rat finks) (it's the meanest thing I'm willing to call anyone who visits my page, okay?), I'M TIRED.
Insomnia is never means I'm not sleepy. I'm SO TIRED.
Twelve hours ago, I was trying not to yawn on my calls at work.
I was even a good girl and had no caffeine after around 4 pm. Yes, I didn't open my second Diet Coke.
So the question on the tip of the tongue is the one you'll chance getting a dirty look for: WHY?
Hell, if I knew that...
Studies show, increased risk of insomnia in women called Tina Kubala to be linked to:
Hormones - yes, the good old menstrual cycle
Stress - no comment
Anxiety - no, it's not the same as stress
Frustration - can be about wanting to sleep when I can't
Contemplating life's futilities, also known as thinking about money
Being overtired
Any physical discomfort
Caffeine consumption
Weird documentaries shown at odd hours - if I stay up one more hour...
Being in the middle of a good book at bedtime
Having a blog entry in my head that inspires me
Heartburn - I need to remember to buy Tums or a bottle of pink stuff
Hunger (munchies) - I might was well have a high fat snack at 12, then wait til 2
See, not even all the factors are bad one's. If I'm in a creative mood to write something awesome, insomnia is a blessing. If I'm up reading a book I can't put down, I look at the next day tiredness as worthwhile. Like some would consider a hangover after a great night out - almost a badge of pride. Aspirin, water, and sleep are the cure either way.
The bad insomnia is when I really would rather sleep then do what I'm doing instead. It also lasts longer. Two or three is workable. I can set the coffee pot and go to work if need be - not the greatest day ever, but not the worst.
The five or six in the morning thing is a whole other ball game. I'm hurting. My brain doesn't work right. It takes about three days to feel 100% normal again.
But that's not the bad part, even. The thing about the bad insomnia is that the long I am up, the more anxious I am about wither I'll be able to sleep. The more anxious I am, the harder it is to relax enough to sleep.
In fact, if it goes on for more than a night or two, my main worry changes from getting sleep to is this a sign depression is rearing it's ugly head. Slipping back down to where I was when I sought treatment before is one of my greatest fears. I tell myself I have to be vigilant to make sure it's simple insomnia, not building depression. That vigilance makes me anxious.
So what kind of insomnia did I suffer this fine night? Well, I have heartburn, cramps, and am worried about money. But I also finished the book I was reading, wrote two blog posts, caught up with my blogroll reading, but not my bookmarked blogs yet to be added.
I also formulated a plan to add a second blog to my domain, began researching one idea for a header image and look, then came across something I like much better. A title, tag line (have to read it once I've slept to make sure it's as cool as I think it is right now), and a theme that matches the header I want to build.
Sorry, but I'm being a tease about the new blog. You'll be the first to know when it's up. Promise.
I'm going to try sleeping again. If I can't sleep tomorrow night, I'm eating the Tylenol PM by midnight.
I tried to go to bed at 2 am. No luck.
For those of you who have never suffered insomnia, (rat finks) (it's the meanest thing I'm willing to call anyone who visits my page, okay?), I'M TIRED.
Insomnia is never means I'm not sleepy. I'm SO TIRED.
Twelve hours ago, I was trying not to yawn on my calls at work.
I was even a good girl and had no caffeine after around 4 pm. Yes, I didn't open my second Diet Coke.
So the question on the tip of the tongue is the one you'll chance getting a dirty look for: WHY?
Hell, if I knew that...
Studies show, increased risk of insomnia in women called Tina Kubala to be linked to:
Hormones - yes, the good old menstrual cycle
Stress - no comment
Anxiety - no, it's not the same as stress
Frustration - can be about wanting to sleep when I can't
Contemplating life's futilities, also known as thinking about money
Being overtired
Any physical discomfort
Caffeine consumption
Weird documentaries shown at odd hours - if I stay up one more hour...
Being in the middle of a good book at bedtime
Having a blog entry in my head that inspires me
Heartburn - I need to remember to buy Tums or a bottle of pink stuff
Hunger (munchies) - I might was well have a high fat snack at 12, then wait til 2
See, not even all the factors are bad one's. If I'm in a creative mood to write something awesome, insomnia is a blessing. If I'm up reading a book I can't put down, I look at the next day tiredness as worthwhile. Like some would consider a hangover after a great night out - almost a badge of pride. Aspirin, water, and sleep are the cure either way.
The bad insomnia is when I really would rather sleep then do what I'm doing instead. It also lasts longer. Two or three is workable. I can set the coffee pot and go to work if need be - not the greatest day ever, but not the worst.
The five or six in the morning thing is a whole other ball game. I'm hurting. My brain doesn't work right. It takes about three days to feel 100% normal again.
But that's not the bad part, even. The thing about the bad insomnia is that the long I am up, the more anxious I am about wither I'll be able to sleep. The more anxious I am, the harder it is to relax enough to sleep.
In fact, if it goes on for more than a night or two, my main worry changes from getting sleep to is this a sign depression is rearing it's ugly head. Slipping back down to where I was when I sought treatment before is one of my greatest fears. I tell myself I have to be vigilant to make sure it's simple insomnia, not building depression. That vigilance makes me anxious.
So what kind of insomnia did I suffer this fine night? Well, I have heartburn, cramps, and am worried about money. But I also finished the book I was reading, wrote two blog posts, caught up with my blogroll reading, but not my bookmarked blogs yet to be added.
I also formulated a plan to add a second blog to my domain, began researching one idea for a header image and look, then came across something I like much better. A title, tag line (have to read it once I've slept to make sure it's as cool as I think it is right now), and a theme that matches the header I want to build.
Sorry, but I'm being a tease about the new blog. You'll be the first to know when it's up. Promise.
I'm going to try sleeping again. If I can't sleep tomorrow night, I'm eating the Tylenol PM by midnight.
Insomnia is a normal occurrence for me too. Though I've never had it clinically proven to even call mine that. I do hope you get some rest soon though! Insomnia is wicked.
Reply to this
Thanks. I've slept most of today. I figure I'll blog, then go back to bed.
Reply to this
Try midnite. It's natural melatonin and works for me. Non addicitve too. I take it now and then.
Thanks for stopping by my blog. Hope you found some of it interesting.
Reply to this
Thanks for the tip. I've always wondered if those natural cures work.
I enjoyed your blog very much. I'll be stopping by again soon.
Reply to this